Ant..

Do you know what really hurts me the most?


It is that you don't even know how I'm feeling over that matter until I told you so.
Even though I pretended at first.


That moment when I initiated to stop web cam-ing was the moment when I
couldn't take it anymore and I really don't know what to do.


I couldn't stop thinking about it that night. I couldn't really fall asleep.


You know..
No matter how close am I with my friend of the opposite gender I will
never, ever, do like what she did that night. Never.


If I tell you that I'm fine right now, then just to let you know..
I'm obviously lieing to you.