What?

I’m feeling so crap now. Not really crap. Actually I'm not sure what and how am I feeling now. But I know I am not feeling right. Not right. This is not how I usually feel. I'm beginning to be pessimistic, for the time being perhaps. The 'devil' side is taking over me. Me.



I’m feeling annoyed. About myself? About my life? About my studies? What? I think it’s the first two. But I won’t elaborate about my life. Just some.. Well, you don’t have to know. You don't have.



I kind of hate dislike myself now. I don’t know, I don’t know. What am I feeling now? I’m not a girl who always have a smile on her face. Even if so, a smile doesn’t mean I am happy. Naive. You're naive. Too naive.



I have things to do. Many things to do but I’m not starting on it. I hate how I am feeling now.






I'm sorry if I frighten some of you because this is so unlike the usual me. But this is really what I am feeling right now.